StarVega"Tr Cap Neptune opp natal Saturn was no fun for me, btw. Major ending."
Yes, it was a crappy time for me as well. Very collapsing, but at the same time somehow swamplike and a feeling like I could never breathe freely again. Not good.
"Nor tr Saturn opp my natal Neptune, which was conjunct tr Pluto, that was 9/11. "
Tr saturn opp. my natal Neptune was really bad for me, too, there have been good things happening before, but when Tr saturn was in partile opposition to my Neptune, conjunct my SN and squaring my Jupiter, the boyfriend of my oldest friend died in a motorcycle accident. He would have turned 25 the month after that.
It completely threw me off course. It also meant that I was losing this particular friend, as she had to distance herself from anything in her past, connected to her boyfriend and start completely new again, which I could understand of course, but it was hard to lose her, too.
I really dislike the disorientation and the feeling like the ground is just crumbling away beyond your feet and you are stuck in mud, with the challenging Neptune-transits.
When Tr Saturn squared my Neptune a few years later, it was a few months after I had met P, and actually it was partile the month, when i was just feeling: "What`s the point anyway?" and deciding to disappear. My first real disappearance, which actually lasted 2 years until we would cross paths again.
No wonder I was fearing what Tr saturn conjunct my Neptune would do to me. lol
The partile conjunction happened in december 2015; curiously even though I once again had that feeling of "What`s the point?" once more, this had been the month before, and after having gotten completely silent on P, I mean really disconnecting, for 2 months. Well 2 months are not long, but it was more than just having other things to do, at least to me it even FELT like a disconnection, anyway, right around the time it was exact (and also to my NN), I was sort of resurfacing, leaving him, like many others, a short birthday greeting, I think something like: My day is ending and yours is just beginning, and something else.
Well it was never meant to be a re-opening or a reconnection (and my heart or soul or Ego, no clue what really, had been feeling quite sick, but then again november just doesn´t seem to be that cheerful of a month for me in any given year. lol well in november my diurnal ASC moves through the natal 12th house. And most aspects to Scorpio are either intense-somber or serious-boring, at least not very joyful and goofy.), but despite me not having that intention, things just kept happening from then on, a few months into 2016 actually.
But nope not too enthusiastic about Tr Saturn to Neptune transits either.
"Nor tr Neptune conjunct my Cap sun, loss of mother (Neptune rules my moon). "
Yes, makes sense. Also Neptune seems to frequently come with feelings of disorientation or ego-loss or bewilderment and sometimes actually these things are being triggered by losses in the material world or world of relationships.
For me that happened in july 1982, it is all a bit hazy and foggy, but my mom was pregnant with my youngest brother, and well when he was born I told everyone he was my soulmate. lol I was 8 years at that time or so. I might not have used the word soulmate though, but I was writing cards for the neighbours to announce his birth and explained when speaking to him, that I "have waited so long for him to arrive, and now he`s finally here and we can play and be together again." What a most weird thing to say for a girl that age! and nope noone ever spoke to me about soulmates, and the likes.
But during the time that Tr neptune was first conjunct my Sun, I was going on a vacation trip with a youth group, and it was a desaster. I did not want to go anymore, but my mom sort of forced me cause I had said before I wanted to go and she wanted to teach me to be consistent, and besides she thought I would really like it in the end.
Before I went there, there was also a situation with a friend, in which I forcefully kept her from getting into the car of a stranger promising her sweets - YES LITERALLY- she wasn`t really thankful for that though, but my friend and me had a very challenged relationship anyway (she was jealous of me for some reason), and on the trip itself, well I did not enjoy it, I was extremely homesick and "mourned" the loss of especially my mother (of course I would see her again, but for these 2 weeks it feels as if she was gone.)
"Pluto could be about endings that start again in another form (?) while Neptune ends things in confusion that is so thick, one can't really recover. "
Yes, in some cases that might be true.
"I say this with tr Neptune square natal Neptune, maybe I don't even realize all that I'm wrecking right now, by not paying attention to the right things? Oh well. "
Curiously that particular square was not as bad for me as expected!
But coming with weird experiences of course. I mean I think it must have taken place mostly in 2016-2017.
The worst thing maybe was in 2016 when my best friend`s mother died, and it did affect me really badly, too. But on the other hand my interaction with P really amazed me at that time, or started to. And I became an aunt, which was a miraculous thing to me, how much his birth changed my life and the way I process feelings. So I cannot say it was all bad.
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Feb 18, 2019 12:41:46 GMT