sven555partile hits were for me january/february 2011; june/july 2011, november/december 2011; it was sort of an intense year, well processing intense feelings (including those of selfloathing. lol).
Well what stands out to me is that that year I´ve miraculously been able to get my hands on tickets for a play with Jude Law (well my friend did). It was a bit of a miracle cause at first it lookedl ike we didn`t make the cut, and while I had seen him before, this was taking place in a very small theatre. Anyway, I remember this week (in august 2011) to have been a very intense theatre experience, much more so even then when I first saw him.
Well during that week there had been a rather volatile transiting picture aligning with mine AND his chart. Not only the Tr Pluto being conjunct my Venus and his Sun, and squaring both Plutos, but also Tr Mars being opposite my Venus (and his Sun) and I think Tr Uranus was squaring my Venus or at least nearing the square.
The play was "Anna Christie" which was very fitting to the Venus-Pluto-Uranus-Mars symbolism (dealing with obsession, passion, anger, jealousy, love, and ultimately transcending all those petty emotions, not love
, with forgiveness).
3 days after that I travelled to a small village here in Germany and was seeing P on stage there, once more as Jesus in Jesus Christ Superstar. It was weird though, it just felt weird, Judes energy and his, and London and that small medieval village did not quite mix that well.
I remember however, that P made me feel a bit awkward, as he seemed to be looking over to me so much, that I was thinking to myself that I was the one meant to observe the action on stage but not the one to BE watched like that. But thought I was sort of mis-reading something there.
Well I did not for a moment believe he would recognize me (the time we had chatted was already 3 years ago, and while we had passed each others on the stairs of a club the year before, when I was to a concert, I did not think he would in any way remember me).
Maybe he did, maybe he didn`t. he did sort of threw me off balance a month after that when, he was approaching me during his solo concert (the first I ever visited of him, and I made sure I was NOT sitting close to stage - he actually came off stage and had to take all the way to the back to approach me and tease me). Well he did that sometimes at that time I guess, I didn`t read too much into that either, though he really really threw me off balance then.
It seemed like my invisiblity cap did not work with him (well in retrospect it probably never did, I was just telling myself it did. lol).
Still, when I was on another concert for the New Year, things were really going wrong, but they were going wrong because of my innate insecurities and complexes I think. I sort of became paranoid, and well not going into my neurotic behaviour, but I decided to grow up and just never cross paths with him again.
Well at that time we did not know each other that well; well we still don´t but at least I stopped running away and forcing some sort of weird behaviour or constantly telling myself he wouldn´t recognize me anyway. I am pretty sure by now he does! LOL
Back then I absolutely misinterpreted some things and failed to notice some other things. And well among those things being that he was going through a crap time as he was in the process of breaking up with his longterm girlfriend.
As for me, well of course I don`t know for sure, but in retrospect I get the feeling, that he would have liked me to stay around or talk to him, or give just any indication that I would be enjoying interacting with him. But I didn´t. Quite the opposite, then I completely disappeared, once again, and over those months he finalized the break up with his girlfriend, and then at the end of summer apparently starting to date another woman, who - coincidentally - became pregnant very quickly (he wasn`t really enthusiastic about the timing, but what can you do?), just around the time I sort of decided to REALLY act like a grown up/ adult, and at least give him a proper goodbye, as I left things sort of in that vague state, and I loathed my role in it. It was my fault things were as weird as they were, as I had realized (but that was after the transit).
Well the proper goodbye turned out to become something... different, I had NOT anticipated. But anyway that was long after.
So a bit more shortly, Tr Pluto conjunct Venus for me was very intense, a transformation process, also having to deal with my insecurities (and failing I must say sadly, at least at that time), oh and apart from the P-scenario, I´ve been conversing with some girls, and some of those communications/ connections turned very very sour, in one case to the point that I had to block the girl`s email address, as she was blaming me for all sorts of things, feeling I let her down (because I did not answer an email of her RIGHT AWAY but gave my family priority. lol) and that I was a bad person and that she was wishing I would experience such a coldhearted behaviour from a friend (we weren`t 3even friends to begin with, just exchanging some emails), too, and more stuff like that.
I also had left LL for the first or second time for some months just before, or was at least toying with the thought, and I think it must have been during that phase that I was fighting with Ami a lot. But then again, that is nothing really specific, there were several times we did. lol
In short, it was definitely related to relationships for me, men and women, and leading to intense transformations but as you can see definitely a bit prone to emotional crisis. And me acting dumb, I must sadly confess.
Of course had I not been acting THAT dumb and weird, maybe that particular song had never come into being a few weeks after my grand exit. lol.
, with forgiveness).
In my case, it was the 2nd house side of things that was affected/lost (possessions, home, etc). Not that it's a 'loss' necessarily, I interpret it as a major change, against my will.
